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i just sit here thinking away to my self and thought yes times are hard at the min trying to sort out bill's and a court date pending ! but then i look back at how life was before and now ,i didnt want to admit to it that it was shit, but now all has changed for the better life is sweet yes it will be tought for a while but hey im sure i will survive, and the end of the day i have my three wonderfull kids to whom i love very much and very lucky to have well i must give some credit to someone eles as well but that all i do have to thank that person for as if it wasnt for that i wouldnt have my charmaine, jake, elle-may , yes i probably would of had another three kids but they wouldnt be what i have now ,and i wouldnt change them for anything in the world yes they aint allways good but hey show me a child that is there such a thing,lol ( i dont think so ,) well here's to there future i hope you do well and get all out of life u want just rember when times are hard the next day will always be better!!! please take it easy on ya old mum in years to come ,lol no police at my door jake ,lol , just rember to treat all ya girlfreinds with respect and not how you have seen me treated over the years, as you are hurting now so rember the pain you feel now for when u are older so your kids dont feel that way about you to .
no sneaking out in some clothes on to only change into that mini skirt and belly top , with those big long legs and beautifull looks charmaine,lol rember you never need a man to look after you or provide for you you will be your own woman who will be able to stand on your own to feet, just use your head over your heart that the only bit of advice i could give you in life dont let any one take advantage of you in life , when you have your own children cherish them like i do you tell them everyday you love them and show them you do . as for my wee girl you to are gonna break a few hearts in your life time but remeber but at some point you will feel that hurt to so go in to a parntership knowing it may never be forever i am a prime example of that , treat people how you would want to be treated in life and they should do the same to you to . all i ask of the three of you in my life time is that make me proud yes you prob will do things as you grow up that i dont allways agree with but hey i did that my self and i prob will still make some mistakes in the life time i have left, but that how we learn right from wrong in life, just enjoy life to the full and be carefull in all you do .i look forward to the big milstones in your lifes, and the achements you all achive in your life times , and the weddings days and grandchildren that you will all give me they will be very much loved by all your side of the family just like you all are now by are side.as for the others it no loss as like you say they didnt want much to do with you any ways yes mummy gets the blame for that but we all no the truth in it all., As for mum you are great on in a million i might not say it enought but you are , if i ever need any one i no i can turn to you i might not allways to that but i know no matter what you will allways be there if needed, i have some very close and dear friends to whom im very lucky to have in my life i love you all you no who you are, im allways here if you ever need me yes we have shared tears on all side's many times but we all so have ahd a whole load of laughts over the years, and that what friends are for. i look forward to what the future holds for me and the kids it gotta be better then what we have all grown to be used to over the years! so heres to the future to all those near and dear to me , love you all allways,xxxx