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well been a wee while since i last did a post , not much happend really ,lol. i havnt heard off the idiot in 3 weeks so it has been nice but i bet my xmas prezzie this year will be my court papers, lol i have allready seen it , ahh well all i will say is bring it on , as for him not being bale to afford the solictor fees ect maby he shouls stop waisting his wages on things that arnt important just for show and start showing the people who are ment to mean somthing it instead.... but hey those who no me and him now what he was like with his money , he would love to flash it in fornt of everybody to make him self look the big man , then when they gone and the bills come in it was allways us that would get it in the ear , and the shouting and the smashing up of things.... ahh well now he is out of are live the last 16 n hl yrs have been wiped from my life and thank god for that but all i will say to the home recking , gold diging dog is ohhhh your time will come my love , if it hasnt allread , maby u can think u will change him like we all do but lol u wont he not change able, so you gonna fall on your face , all i will say is that at least i can say no matter what i had 16 n half yrs with him yes most wasnt good , but hey there was a few , but at the min he got his money to falsh , well once he realize he cant keep on the way he is then it will be what we have all come to be used to , so god help you hope it was all worth it ,as it will never last as long as we did and i have the 3 kids to ,lol . well e-m has told off today as she drew all over my wall in the play room with pink pen the sod ,she didnt no what to do when i told her off now she buzzing around me all the more as she just dosnt no what to do .lol

17th october 2009

well i took the kids to there first footbal training leason today and they loved every second so nice to see the smiles on there face's . even elle-may had her own mini goal post to shoot holes in ,lol she realy enjoyed it as well , then my poor wee lad come home and at 12 pm said he had a head ache and tummy ache, he was really ruff most of the day up till 7pm then he was back to his old self i think he was just so knackerd out form footie really washed him out , but they cant wait for next week allready . had a lazy ish day havnt been sleeping to well so been up hunting eggs so i feel knackerd tonight, looking forward to me bed bet i dont sleep again mind , oh well there allways good old fb to fall back on and egg hunting till early hours in the morning.well father xmas not far away now jake is sorted charmaine got her ipod so need to make up the rest , elle-may got her go cart and her doll and house and figures stil got a bit more to get to make up but feel alot better now knowing i have manage to get there bits, with out any help form others well jacy and her partner for picking up go cart, lol...... so i did get some help really .i sit her watching the end of the xfactor it getting tough on them allready and it only week two god help them in weeks to come.charmaine is hounding me to watch strictly come dancing god help me i can just about handle it , so it gonna be a late night for the girls again , jake is tucked up in bed was washed out big time he gonna be a high as a kite in the morn . well good old mum is comming tom for the week and to sub me some money as i mother hubburd today i will give her a check to cover it so she isnt balling me out im a grown woman and i can and will stand on my own to feet i dont need no man for that mind you what do we need men for in the first place oh yes kids but all they give you is grief most of the time ,lol, sorry guys i now you not all the same , hopfully one day i will find my mr right.............. and become a mrs at some point oh and maby have another baby to call my own ,lol i dont want to much do i ,lol.well got afew days left till half term then gonna be nice and busy trying to find stuff for the kids to do to keep them busy .not heard form any one today oh well apart form me mum, and i rung me babe (carol - love ya babe,xx) i did see jacy today she done well at the races by the sounds of it lucky cow she in the money ,lol wish id have that luck i would loose so much money havnt got a lucky streak in me bones ,lol.not even lucky in love well so it seems i will be one day , i have all the love in the world form my kids and thats all that matters to me , and family and freinds.

lucky

i just sit here thinking away to my self and thought yes times are hard at the min trying to sort out bill's and a court date pending ! but then i look back at how life was before and now ,i didnt want to admit to it that it was shit, but now all has changed for the better life is sweet yes it will be tought for a while but hey im sure i will survive, and the end of the day i have my three wonderfull kids to whom i love very much and very lucky to have well i must give some credit to someone eles as well but that all i do have to thank that person for as if it wasnt for that i wouldnt have my charmaine, jake, elle-may , yes i probably would of had another three kids but they wouldnt be what i have now ,and i wouldnt change them for anything in the world yes they aint allways good but hey show me a child that is there such a thing,lol ( i dont think so ,) well here's to there future i hope you do well and get all out of life u want just rember when times are hard the next day will always be better!!! please take it easy on ya old mum in years to come ,lol no police at my door jake ,lol , just rember to treat all ya girlfreinds with respect and not how you have seen me treated over the years, as you are hurting now so rember the pain you feel now for when u are older so your kids dont feel that way about you to .
no sneaking out in some clothes on to only change into that mini skirt and belly top , with those big long legs and beautifull looks charmaine,lol rember you never need a man to look after you or provide for you you will be your own woman who will be able to stand on your own to feet, just use your head over your heart that the only bit of advice i could give you in life dont let any one take advantage of you in life , when you have your own children cherish them like i do you tell them everyday you love them and show them you do . as for my wee girl you to are gonna break a few hearts in your life time but remeber but at some point you will feel that hurt to so go in to a parntership knowing it may never be forever i am a prime example of that , treat people how you would want to be treated in life and they should do the same to you to . all i ask of the three of you in my life time is that make me proud yes you prob will do things as you grow up that i dont allways agree with but hey i did that my self and i prob will still make some mistakes in the life time i have left, but that how we learn right from wrong in life, just enjoy life to the full and be carefull in all you do .i look forward to the big milstones in your lifes, and the achements you all achive in your life times , and the weddings days and grandchildren that you will all give me they will be very much loved by all your side of the family just like you all are now by are side.as for the others it no loss as like you say they didnt want much to do with you any ways yes mummy gets the blame for that but we all no the truth in it all., As for mum you are great on in a million i might not say it enought but you are , if i ever need any one i no i can turn to you i might not allways to that but i know no matter what you will allways be there if needed, i have some very close and dear friends to whom im very lucky to have in my life i love you all you no who you are, im allways here if you ever need me yes we have shared tears on all side's many times but we all so have ahd a whole load of laughts over the years, and that what friends are for. i look forward to what the future holds for me and the kids it gotta be better then what we have all grown to be used to over the years! so heres to the future to all those near and dear to me , love you all allways,xxxx

my dearest freind (carol ) 11th october 2009

well thank you carol my dear and close friend to whom i think the world ! even though we have never met but hey all i will say is thank got for f.b as i have made a true life long friend to call my own , you will allways have a specail place in my heart allways , i now i can call on you whenever i need a chat or reasurance on any thing at all and thats what a true friend is all about , u make me laught till i cry and i crippled over in pain but its a good pain , many a laughts we have had allready and there will be plenty more to come , i love ya babe you are one in a million ,xxxx